In the Old Testament the people of God would build stone alters whenever something significant happened to them to mark the place and be a permanent reminder of a moment in time, a gift or intervention from God. This is my garden of stones of remembrance - moments to mark places and times when God the Father has spoken, reveled, comforted, warned, or simply given a miracle to me.
Monday, February 15, 2010
Valentine's
I hate Valentine's Day and I hate the way people make me feel and I hate my birthday. God this day SUCKS!
You know, if you put a comma after the word "God," this would be a prayer. . . I know: not helpful, but at least you know I'm here. :D Love you, Becki.
God, this day SUCKS!!! As does the one that follows. If I start screaming now, do think God will consider that a prayer too. I don't want to be here anymore. I am tired of being attacked by people of the church, I am tired of not being good enough for anything, and I am tired of being ignored as if I were no more than dust. I am so very tired of being curled into a ball crying on the floor.
No sweat, not your problem and I do appreciate your input, I just want to stop breathing right now so I can quit hurting. The last 48 hours have been a word I shouldn't say just in case I offend someone. I really do not know why I am here anymore except to be a whipping dog. I don't want to hurt anymore, I just want to go away, go away to where noone and nothing hurts anymore. Too bad that place dosen't exist here on earth.
Don't sweat a reply, there really is nothing you can say anyway. I appreciate your friendship, but I just can't talk anymore. Thanks
4 comments:
You know, if you put a comma after the word "God," this would be a prayer. . . I know: not helpful, but at least you know I'm here. :D Love you, Becki.
God, this day SUCKS!!! As does the one that follows. If I start screaming now, do think God will consider that a prayer too. I don't want to be here anymore. I am tired of being attacked by people of the church, I am tired of not being good enough for anything, and I am tired of being ignored as if I were no more than dust. I am so very tired of being curled into a ball crying on the floor.
No sweat, not your problem and I do appreciate your input, I just want to stop breathing right now so I can quit hurting. The last 48 hours have been a word I shouldn't say just in case I offend someone. I really do not know why I am here anymore except to be a whipping dog. I don't want to hurt anymore, I just want to go away, go away to where noone and nothing hurts anymore. Too bad that place dosen't exist here on earth.
Don't sweat a reply, there really is nothing you can say anyway. I appreciate your friendship, but I just can't talk anymore.
Thanks
Sorry, I am just really really sick inside right now.
B
I'm here.
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