Last post update

I don't know what to do or not do. Since my last post, I received an email from someone I care greatly about and she pretty much ripped me apart. I spoke with someone I trust to steer me truly and that helped me get control of the water coming in thorough the hole my friend punched in my side. And now, I sit here and think that perhaps it is time to let go. I don't know if I will be able to do it very well, I have never been able to do it in the past, but I do love my friends and it seems that our friendship has outlived it's use in their lives, so God help me I am truly going to try very hard to let them go. I think this will be only traumatic to me, because I feel like to them, they are already gone. So is life. Well, my life anyway.

And for the record, I still love you guys, not that you will ever see this or ever know, but I do and I don't want to hurt anyone anymore. This is about me, but it is mostly about trying to do what is best for you guys.

Finite