Wednesday, May 6, 2009

the book - get married - by Candice Watters

I don't even know where to start really. I just bought the book "get married" by Mrs. Watters after reading some of the discussions and groups here. It came in the mail this last week and I finished it today and in one week's time my life has dramatically altered.

Last Sunday I was struggling with the revelation that I have been sitting at the water of Mara in the desert of Exodus and drinking bitter bitter water for most of my life. I am 43, single, and had no real hope of ever being married and in agony of loneliness due to being in a small southern US town with very few single men and even fewer Christian single men.

Then, as I read her book, I felt like so MUCH of her words were my own. In fact in Chapter 9, Candice talks about her prayer for a husband when she was young and single and I swear the words are almost word for word my prayers to God. Then she shows a much better prayer to pray with boldness. Oh my goodness, I can't even express the freedom I have received through the pages of this book. I have been in bondage to worldly thinking, to the misguided thinking of the thoughts of some of the married Christian women I know, and to some misguided efforts of the church itself. I prayed, but without hope... without real belief, and without trust. This book has given me the background information to really understand what God wants for me and therefore given me the boldness to actually place my desires in His very capable hands with true trust. Something I have NEVER had before. Always, I have offered my prayers to be married to God with little hope of fulfillment or answers and no trust at all that He was even concerned with such an unimportant aspect of my life. To make a great metaphor, this book, made on pages from trees has been tossed into the bitter waters of my life and turned them sweet. I cried out to God only a week ago to give me some way to make the water of my life sweet because I was so tired of choking down bitter water and He provided by bringing this book into my life.

I am so filled right now with a spirit of expectations. My situation has not changed. I am still 43, still single, still with no real prospects on the horizon, but today, the water is sweet. Today, God made real to me that He really does love me and He knows about my desire and He wants me to be married because that is what He programmed me for. Now, I can really trust Him to answer my plea with real faith because I now believe.

2 comments:

AuthorMama said...

Wow, Rebecca, I am honored to think God could work through me to bless you this way. Your post left me in tears; speechless. To Him be the glory!!

Rebecca at the Well said...

Thank you. What is REALLY funny in an ironic sort of way, is that I would have said this problem was my biggest and without everything else would be minor, but now that this massive rock has been moved, I am finding that there is a field of large rocks behind it. lol The biggest and baddest may be gone, but the battle continues - thanks for helping me find the hope needed to go on!!
B