life is what it is

I am sick inside. Not from any great spiritual attack or from another heart attack or anything like that. I am sick because I just realized in trying to get all my bills so that they are no more than 30 days past due and every medical bill got 5.00 that I missed paying my car payment. And I don’t have it. I don’t know what to do or where to get the money. I feel so helpless and hopeless. I didn’t do this to myself. I had debt sure, but I was comfortable and able to pay my bills until this heart attack. Now I am sinking further and further and I don’t know how I am going to pull my self out of this.